Dear Journal

first day of class!

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 22:30:41 GMT

Classes are great...... and I haven't even had my art courses. Botany is proving to be very interesting and I love the teacher. I got all of my supplies today, 600$ worth! Seems like a lot but my books where the bulk of that. I have my painting kit and drawing as well now, and tomorrow is my back to back art day. I can't wait to learn some new skills and get that first painting started. I have 5 canvases waiting to be painted, one already set up on my easle. As for a piece of art, I have a few sketches in the works and I might squeeze out a finished piece next week between classes. 4 hour labs don't leave a lot of free time, but I'll manage. So far I am thinking of a portrait-type painting of Seth Harless with little creatures in the background and if my calligraphy skills are still up to par some lyrics. I'm still in Semi-Hibernation mode so things are going to be slow until I get my day ordered out into something with enough free time to do the artwork and get them uploaded.

Well I have a meeting coming up, so until next time take care of yourselves.

-Tamera

Dorm Life So Far

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 20:26:46 GMT

It's not that bad actually. The rooms are nice and cool with individual pads to control the temperature, and have a decent amount of space. I have most everything moved in and set up how I want, and my roomate is really nice. Her name is Stephanie and she's from Austin and a big movie nut. Her dresser is full of nothing but her collection. I brought the gamecube with me so I could play a few games like Eternal Darkness and REmake during my free time until I get my first big art projects. Stephanie is also an art major, she specializes in graffiti and tags. Classes don't start for 4 days still so I'm pretty much free until then to do a few drawings and maybe another painting to practise some more. I don't care if it's shitty, the act of actually finishing pieces is really helping me gain confidence in my work. Well I have a red velvet cake waiting to be baked, so cya.

-Tamera

The Big Day

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 11:57:19 GMT

Move-in to my dorm is today, in about two hours I'll be shipping my stuff to Hillsboro! I haven't slept a wink I've been so nervous....I don't know my roomate, but hopefully she isn't some braindead ditzy blond or bitchy goth wannabe.......Well, I still have some boxes to pack, so I'll update from the library soon.

-Tamera

Wheee Nervous!

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 21:28:53 GMT

I am so excited and nervous I'm actually feeling pretty sick right now....It's so close to move in date....three more days and I get to move my stuff to the dorm and get ready for my classes! Once I see how my funds go once I have supplies, I think I'll add digital art to my class list. If all else fails, I can take it next semmester. Speaking of art, I did finish one painting:

She is watercolor inked with orange ink. It wasn't a big investment of effort, mainly practise with blending colors. So what do you think? I submitted a few pieces to http://www.epilogue.net/index.php and I hope they get posted, if not I'll just wait until I finish something good. It's given me something to work hard for in the very least. I also have started my e-bay account to sell prints in the future, soon as I finish this first batch of paintings. It's going to be really hard, but maybe I can make a little money off my art while I go to school. I really don't like the idea of selling my work, but if I manage to find something that does sell, it wouldn't hurt to keep making it. Just as long as my real art isn't being whored out I think I can survive.

Krystal is better by the way, her transplant is on the way to being done, she goes on the list as soon as my mother moves there in October. She's been really healthy since the blood tranfusion thing they gave her, and hasn't been back to the hospital since. Basically, I'm doing ok, Amanda is doing ok we're just waiting on pins and needles for classes to start. I'm liking this no rent idea with the dorms, jjust got to find some good net for the room, but until then I can jjust go to the library to update. I'll post again soon, bye.

-Tamera

School Time

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 01:36:34 GMT

The past month has been nothing but paperwork between the accident and getting my classes sorted out, but I"m happy to say its almost all done. I got a 300$ settlement from the first insurence company that went to dorm supplies, and I am happy with everything I got. I got matching purple of everything because its my favorite color and its easy to tell what stuff is mine. As for classes, this semmester I have the best tuesday and thursday imaginable, nothing but my drawing and painting class. monday, wednesday, and friday I have math and botony which puts me at right about 13 hours, a light first load to get used to school with. Still really busy, so I should have a full update eventually just not right now. Off I go to paint with my 20 new uber nice brushes, so cya later.

-Tamera

A Day in the Life

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 02:21:11 GMT

Guess it's time for a real update, not too much to put but a lot of it is rather good news. I got all of my school stuff done, its all taken care of so I'm good to go on the dorm. No monthly rent payment whee! I cut my hair off, it's sholder length with shaggy bangs and a blue black color, I got bored with it just being long and brown. I like it enough, and that's all that matters. I don't want to hear another person tell me it's too dark for my face, its my hair not yours so fuck off.

Mom is moving to Houston soon, like in October so..there goes my family again. On to better things, Krystal is being put on the transplant list and near the top! I'm SO happy, she seriously was close to death earlier.....she's feeling better and this transplant is just what she needs. Dad is looking into a newer larger apartment soon too, three bedrooms so Krystal and I have one, my brothers the other, and him his own. My computer is getting an upgrade soon, first of all a new moniter with as true of color as possible. Flat screens have low color quality when compaired to a high refresh rate full moniter of higher grade at the same price. I'll donate desk space if it means a better screen.

Not much else to report, I'm still ok if a little stressed. Testing and move in are right around the corner and that loan sold my soul for money, but I'll manage. Love you guys,

-Tamera

Website Layout Update

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 01:14:41 GMT

After a few different ideas, I can finally reveal the ideal layout for my website. I still haven't made my mind up about everything, but I do like the color selection. So far no real content is uploaded, but the gallery does have a few samples to display the layout I have in mind. By using this code (which took almost all day to perfect) the actual images can't be saved only the teasers. No need for big ugly watermarks across my art, and it looks much more polished than a mass of thumbnails thrown into the center of the page. A big thank you to Amanda, I couldn't have done this without you.

Let me know what you think, and if any quirks in the page pop up send me a message telling me where and what they are.

http://leonidfeorus.atspace.com/

Status

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 21:25:06 GMT

Well, my mom has been taking care of me the past few days, I'm starting to feel better in general. My neck is stiff really stiff and sore, things like yawning or any movement of my head more than an inch or two really hurts. Yesterday I sneezed, now that was pain. Amanda and Penny are more sore than I am, but aside from pain they are fine.

My cousin is suppose to come see me sometime soon, he's in for a week before being shipped to Iraq. I haven't seen him in about a year and a half, so it will be nice to see him again, he's been through Marine's training so I'm sure he's not the brat I remember anymore. If my mom gets home early enough, I'll be going to Cleburn to see Pirates 2, but fuck I'm scared of getting back in a car again....and in the dark too. If it starts raining while we are driving I'll probably have a panic attack, it was raining when the accident happened. SO far I've only had to be in a car once, and I was scared shitless the whole time. But my mom as usual has advice, you have to make yourself get back in the car or you never will.

Well here goes mom, I'll hopefully be going somehere tonight. I kinna sketched a few things over the past week, I did a drawing of Una a little fluffy girl wearing a cute bodice modeled after the one Amanda bought at the renfaire and an interesting mix of fashions. Beneath the corset is a fishnet bodysuit thingy and over that a plaid miniskirt paired with thigh high's. Her clothes are always very ecclectic and definatly her, and her belt has her signiture bat on it, it has crazy spiral eyes and a toothy grin. I touched up a sketch of a girl from profile, added a pattern to her dress and such, and after watching The Brothers Grimm, I did a weird little child-sorceress sketch. It's hard to explain in words, I'll just post the sketch in my sketch journal. I want to get to my dad's so I can use my tablet to ink the pages of figure study I did last night, I didn't sleep until 6 am and I woke up at 9am when my brothers had to get up.

I didn't get to turn in my papers, so I'll just have to monday. I only have a few to fill out, and they can be done at registration, it's the dorm application I need to get done soon. I Have the money and everything, just need to get off my butt and do it. At least my funding got done this year. Well, not much else to report really, phones are still down and I'm still sore, so cya.

-Tamera

Springtime.....for Hitler and Germany

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 05:33:20 GMT

....that's the last thing I remember hearing before the car accident.
I was ridding with Amanda and her mother to return some movies when some fucker smashed into the back of our car doing at least 90. I was in the back seat when I heard what sounded like an explosion and I was showered in glass, flung forward and I could see the grill of a huge truck right beside me running our car off the road. Penny managed to get us stopped safely and we all got out ok, but the entire trunk of the car was gone. Literally. People thought it was a hatchback it was so completly crushed in. After we where sure we where ok John came and i had to sit, my whole neck side and sholder was starting to stiffen tingle and hurt. Amanda and I both ended up on stretchers.

We where put in neck braces and rode in an ambulence to the local hospital where we had several x-rays. Her mother even had to get a CAT scan, but we where all ok. Amanda and Penny have soft collars to help their necks and we where given painkillers. I have never felt that much fear in my entire life, if I had been sitting on the right back seat I would have broke something, the seat there was shoved forward almost half a foot. I keep hearing the bang and seeing it all over and over again when I clsoe my eyes and every time I start crying again because we all could have been dead. The accident happened around 6:30 and I didnt get out of the hospital until nearly 10:30 at night.

Wanna know the funny part? The fucker who hit us is gonna pay out the nose for this most likely. He started lieing and lieing digging himself deeper and deeper, he even started a story about us being stopped..in the middle of a highway. Why the fuck would we be stopped in the middle of a rode ? Anyways, when it was all done with we all are going to be very sore tomorrow and someone is gonna be much lighter in the pocketbook.

Sega and Sonic

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 03:46:32 GMT

Well, a few days ago we found a sega for sale at a yard sale for a whole dollar, cords controller and everything so we got it. Turns out it works wonderfully and we have been playing it all night, and now I'm off to watch the Producers again. I'll be back later, just basically a small update before the real one. Later.

My New Personal Journal

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 21:09:21 GMT

Welcome to my new personal journal. This is where I can make posts for all of my friends and family members to read and keep up to date on my life, especially matters conserning my sister. If cursing doesn't apeal to you, then look elsewhere because this is where I come to vent as well as update.

I have been meaning to keep better in touch with many people, and this time I have a fresh new place to do that very thing. My online gallery has been seperated so my work doesn't interfere with my personal life. Comments are allowed, I won't hide behind filters or cuts. If you have so little of a life that you have to spend your time digging for people's journals and reading their posts and leaving little nasty comments, then maybe you should rethink a few things.

Right now, I have heard from my sister and things are a little better sounding in some ways, and a little worse in others. She isn't as sick feelings as she was the night she left for the hospital, but she does need to get a blood transfusion. Her red plattlet count was very low, and the doctors think this will help her out a lot. Her blood is being tested as I type this, and that's good to know. Some more amusing news, my older sister Kami has already set me up with some guy thinking I'll like him. I'll meet him and most likely be friends with him, it's worth a try no?

Things I need to Do:

Finish College paperwork
Have the yard sale to get rid of my junk
Finish SOMETHING art related
Try to visit Krystal in Houston